I lost someone in my family the other day.
It’s affected me more than i would’ve thought. She hasn’t been a regular part of my life for a few years so it hasn’t made much difference to my day-to-day life, but she was a huge part of my life up until i was about 15, especially in my childhood. She played a huge part in bringing me up and in my eyes, was invincible, she was an amazing human being.
Along with all this sad-ness, my parents have had to rush back to Hong Kong to sort everthing out so everything’s just been hectic. I keep going through phases of silence, not knowing what to do and not wanting to do anthing and just having tears leak out of my eyes while 10 million thoughts and memories go through my mind. And then phases of non-stop action, doing everything at once and keeping busy. I don’t feel like myself the past couple of days and i miss that. Hopefully, with seeing some friends and getting away for a bit, my former self will return.
Apologies for this deep and serious post, i just needed to get it off my mind.
Regular posting and outfits of the days will resume shortly.
I know i’ll always have the memories, but i just wish i got the chance to say goodbye and tell her how much i loved her, how much she means to me, and how thankful i am to have had her in my life.
My nan, the only grandparent i’d ever known, and the best one i could of ever wished for.